Vacation next week! I cannot wait. Every year we go camping with my parents for a week in the most beautiful place on the face of the planet, and every year I have such a great time. I come home relaxed, happy, and refreshed; ready for another year of grueling work and school and all the stress that comes with both.
For the first time since I left Dimple I'm actually looking forward to time away from my job. I guess I've finally become burned out with what I do, and although I know it was bound to happen eventually, I am sad that the time has finally come. I can't complain that much, however, since I still very much respect my bosses, which for any job can make or break the experience. I think I'm just comfortable in what I do: the "honeymoon" phase has definitely ended.
On a different note, I'm either excited and optimistic or petrified in fear and depressed about my transfer to Davis that is all-too-quickly approaching. Depending on the day (and sometimes the hour) my anxiety level changes regarding this life changing alteration. I still cannot believe that I'm going to such a huge school, or that I'm finally working on classes for my B.A. Incredible. I had an appointment with a program at Davis that you have to apply for. It's an undergraduate program to help students with research, but also give them the opportunity to have a faculty mentor in a subject they are interested/majoring in, and to write a paper based on the research they do. It's also an opportunity for units and financial aid money, so all around seems like a good program. It was great, though, because at the end of the appointment the woman was practically begging me to apply--which made me feel really good. I wish I could interview for jobs the way I interview for academics!
I really want to do so much when I'm there. I told Jason the other day that I don't want to graduate just to get "a job." My goal is to graduate and be so qualified, so educated, so that I get my pick of the jobs. I want to be the applicant that employers feel fortunate to even get a chance to look at my resume. When the hiring committee is through interviewing me, I want them to say "Wow, I really hope she accepts our offer." For me, it's not about the money. Sure, I want to have a good paying job, but more than that, I want to have my choice of jobs, not just take the first one that's offered to me. Maybe I'm just setting the bar too high, but I think I can do this.
School starts September 22. I'm probably going to take that whole week off, just for the adjustment. I don't know where to park, or if I have to pay for my classes, or anything. I feel so clueless--so out of touch. I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually, but it's such a huge adjustment. I'm sure I'll cope...
As always thanks for reading. I'll try and write again before we leave on vacation, but only if I have something interesting to say.
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