Entry 4--AKA: "Not always feeling on the up and up."

I don't know what it is lately but I am definitely not feeling my best. I haven't been sleeping well at all and I cannot decide if I'm getting sick or suffering from terrible allergies. Whatever my problem it is certainly taking its toll on my attitude this last few weeks and this week is no exception.

I had a migraine on Friday which--forgive my vulgarity--sucked donkey balls. I hate, hate, hate having headaches and that hate is only made exponential when I wake up with one. The only thing worse than waking up with a headache is waking up with a migraine, which was the exact situation on Friday. I wouldn't have gone to work except that the other person with the door keys, as well as any knowledge on how to get the place running, had already called in sick and I knew he wouldn't be there. So I sucked it up, stopped for a 4-shot espresso on my way to work and hoped that it was just a serious case of caffeine addiction causing my headache.

It wasn't. After about an hour at work I was feeling like I couldn't keep my eyes open. The lights were starting to get the blurry sensation around them and I was beginning to get nauseous. At that point it's only a matter of time until my stomach begins expelling its contents (no matter how little might be in there) so I called it a day and went home. Once home I not only was struggling with a headache but was starting to feel oncoming flu symptoms so Jason hooked up some night-time theraflu (yes, at noon), I drank a crap load of water and curled up in bed with the lights out managing to go to sleep. I woke up sometime between 4-5 pm that afternoon and though my head was feeling much better I was still feeling some pain. I was just glad I wasn't feeling nauseous--I hate feeling nauseous.

The rest of the weekend was pretty uneventful. I managed to get a lot of homework done. After my last streak of good test grades I'm feeling more motivated than I have all semester.

I should be getting my tax return any day. I'm so excited at the thought of having savings again!

We're reading "The Sound and the Fury" by Faulkner now in my Literature class. I find that book so fascinatingly disorienting. It took awhile, but the style has definitely grown on me. I enjoy that the author doesn't just feed you the information: you have to really interpret each word on the page and use the context to really understand the plot. It's as though Faulkner respected the reader enough to assume that it will be understood.
"Here, reader, you're smart--figure it out!"
"Thanks, Faulkner; you're such a pal!"
I'm sure that's not what he intended but I'll take my compliments, no matter how far-fetched, where I can find them.

In other news I have decided I'm not going to watch the news anymore in the mornings. (See that? How I started with "in other news" to begin talking about news? How clever.) I find that I experience more anxiety on days where I watch news in the morning and I am not going to take that. Not from CNN, MSNBC, and certainly not you, FoxNews..."America's unbiased news" my ass. I'm tired of the elections or primaries or whatever they're called at this stage in the game, I'm tired of the economy, I'm tired of recession, stock, housing crisis, the Israeli-Iran disputes, war in Iraq and every other nonsensical, over-the-top, media nightmare, ratings-grabbing crap that is circulating the networks.

I'm tired of it!!!
At least they should tell you something new--they are the NEWs--right? I'm just going to start calling it the olds.
"Didja watch the olds?"
"Nope, I decided it would be a better use of my time tweezing every hair off of my limbs, one by one."

What else? Nothing I guess. It's 9pm and I am exhausted. I have to get up early tomorrow to go my instructor's office hour before class. Sure am glad she holds her office hour at 6:45 am. The epitome of convenient, especially for those of us who have nothing better to do than plan our lives around 6:45 am office hours. Nice.

Seriously, that's all. I'm grumpy, so don't mind it. Actually, by that measure, just disregard this whole blog.
Thanks.